Because It’s Just Me.

Because It’s Just Me.

25 and everyone’s still dancing around hugging using drugs.
Nothings changed in 10 years except the pain.
This quarter life crisis
has me drinking myself to sleep.
Feeling sick and like shit when i wake.
I can barely take another day.
It’s hard to breathe in L.A.
Lost i cant find myself, i dug myself too deep.
A buried treasure no one will find to keep.
This world is as sad as me
but i don’t try finding myself in a dancing conformist crowd.
I stay alone to wallow
where my hearts supposed to be its hallow.
I’m tired of these people around me
I feel trapped by idiocracy
when will i be able to finally feel free.
For someone to finally accept me..
for me..
to accept me…

Illusions

il·lu·sion

 noun \i-ˈlü-zhən\

Definition of ILLUSION

1
a obsolete : the action of deceiving

 

(1) : the state or fact of being intellectually deceived or misled : misapprehension (2) : an instance of such deception

2
(1) : a misleading image presented to the vision (2) :something that deceives or misleads intellectually

 

(1) : perception of something objectively existing in such a way as to cause misinterpretation of its actual nature (2) :hallucination 1 (3) : a pattern capable of reversible perspective

3
: a fine plain transparent bobbinet or tulle usually made of silk and used for veils, trimmings, and dresses

Illusions… It’s what blinds us. It’s what scars us. We want to forget the thoughts we wish we had

I feel i’ve been blinded for awhile. Ever since I was a child I always questioned “things” “people”…. They’ve been covered and disguised. To finally feel conscious of this bullshit state of a world we live in has made me grow old.

As a child i only wished to live, which i did…While as an adult i only live to die…

People obviously aren’t who they seem to be. In disguise from thy selves as well as everybody else.

There’s no where to hide, not even in yourself. 

What is the truth? What is the real reality of the illusions we call every day life. 
Is what we see Truth or a lie?
What about what we think?…
How about what we feel?…